You hear that today your baby is very quick to upset and challenging and you wish you were home with her instead of her being with someone else
My daughter is 5 months old today, and what a joy.
She is getting more mobile all the time. Now if you put her down on her back most of the time she will roll over to her tummy and happily play that way. She can turn around in a circle, though she is usually trying to move forward
when she ends up turning. She really wants to crawl! She can’t quite sit on her own yet, but she is getting close.
She holds toys in her hands and brings them to her mouth. She is captivated by books and will look at the pages while you read through whole board books, sometimes several times.
She loves it when you sing to her. She especially lights up for Old McDonald Had a Farm, and she is soothed by Hush Little Baby, the Alphabet Song, and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star.
She naps for a few hours a day, often taking about 4 20 or 30 minute naps. A nap of 45 minutes or more is on the long side for her these days. She goes to bed between 7 and 9, most often around 8:30, unswaddled but in the baby merlin magic sleep suit.
Sometimes I put her to bed and stay up for a bit, and other times I just lay there with her and go to sleep myself. She wakes up several times through the night and we usually get up for the day around 7:30 am. She sleeps next to me in the bed and I love the closeness, the ease of nursing, and being able to feel her little body and cuddle her if she is upset.
She really loves to go outside and to be worn in a wrap on me. She smiles just to see me take out the wraps and is usually happy for a long time when I wear her.
She loves to look at herself in the mirror and to look at hands, whether they are hers or someone else’s.
She loves her daddy too and laughs when he plays with her. When he greets her in the morning while she lays in bed next to me she grins widely and looks for him when he leaves the room.
Being her mother is the most wonderful, amazing experience and I am so thankful to share this time with her and watch her grow!
I know I have it good, because I only work 2 days out of the home each week, but even for me this is tough. I miss my little girl so much. And I know she misses me too. It’s especially hard on days when the nanny tells me that she is fussy. Yesterday she cried for 30 minutes; the nanny said she tried everything but Precious would not be soothed until finally she fell asleep. On days like that I just want to go home and hold my baby!
That night, she fell asleep on the nursing pillow and I stayed there with her for an hour before moving her to bed.
While pregnant it was “Do you have the nursery ready?”, now it’s “Is she sleeping through the night?”. These questions are asked by acquaintances and even strangers.
As a believer in attachment parenting and a happily cosleeping, bedsharing mom, I always stumble with how to respond to these questions. Do I give the asker a lesson on the benefits of sharing a room? Do I explain how the American Academy of Pediatrics recommends babies sleep in the same room as their parents, that it cuts the risk of SIDS in half?
Do I tell them how frustrated I am that our society is so caught up on supposedly fostering independence at an early age, that despite evidence that it can be done safely and is in fact practiced for at least part of the night in a large amount of American households, the AAP still refuses to talk about how to safely bed share with your infant? This is a disservice because it makes it harder for those who do it without having planned it to learn about how to do it safely. And it makes many feel guilty and feel that they can’t speak openly about their nighttime practices.
Do I answer curtly, with the usually true “No” or the fully honest “Sometimes, though not because I’ve been training her to”? Or perhaps just a small piece of my thinking, “No, and that’s fine with me”.
What I really wish is that instead of asking how my baby sleeps, the common questions would be about what she does while she’s awake. If you want to hear about my baby, how about asking what new things she’s been doing, or whether she likes tummy time or when we will start solids? How about giving me a chance to tell you how she loves to stick her tongue out at people and to blow raspberries, or how she has developed an adorable, genuine laugh? These things are all much more natural and important to me than whether she sleeps through the night.
My daughter is 18 weeks old. Last Friday, when she turned 4 months old, I saw her roll. She did it several times, tummy to back, and I even caught it on video.
I took out the toddler seat for the stroller last weekend as well. She really liked it because she loves to be able to see and take in the world around her.
I can’t help but feel she is growing up too fast. It’s like I could blink and when I open my eyes she’ll be crawling. And then blink again and she’s walking. Then talking.
This baby stage is so short. It is also very challenging, and for that reason we appreciate its brevity. Caring for a tiny being who cannot even sit up is a lot of work. When she first started to seem to be teething it was hard because she couldn’t even hold a teether to her mouth. Now she can, although she often does struggle to get the right part in and hold it there. But the positives are so good, I would easily sign on for this again.
I love her so much. I think we are very attached to each other. She needs me, and I need her too.
Sometimes I wish it would last just a bit longer, that I had many more months of easily carrying her in my arms, nursing her to sleep, being her source of warmth and comfort and food. It is so heartwarming and fulfilling. I feel like a more fulfilled person than ever before, full of love and happy memories with my husband and my daughter’s life so far.
I feel so happy that I don’t want it to end. I know that she will grow up and make her own way in the world and our relationship will change and mature. I know that there is plenty of time before that stage. But this part has gone by fast, so I’m sure the next parts will too. Knowing that from here it will be a constant dance of separation is a source of sadness.
I’ve never felt the march of time so strongly as I do now, caring for my infant daughter with her frequent developments.
I can’t stop time, so I’m left trying to enjoy these moments, each of them, as much as I can.
Today is my daughter’s 4 month birthday, and I’m writing this as I head downtown for our first date night without Athena. I’m meeting Husband when he gets off work, and then we’re going to have dinner before we head to a concert.
I’m looking forward to the focused time with my husband.
It feels weird, heading out without her but not being on my way to work. I bet it will feel even weirder being at dinner with Husband but not Precious!
But it will be nice to enjoy our dinner at our pace without any worries that it will get cold while tending to the needs of a baby.
My daughter is 16 weeks old today.
Precious has been developing all sorts of cute things lately. At almost 4 months, she has become very aware of and engaged with the world around her.
She has started to show signs of humor, enjoying when Daddy makes funny faces at her. She sticks out her tongue, which makes us all laugh and stick out our tongues back at her. She blows bubbles with her ever present drool and squeals readily with joy.
She now rolls to her side easily, and with all the wriggling she often turns herself around on her playmat. That works well because then she is constantly seeing different toys as she changes her angle.
Last week I had a very hard day, when upon returning from work the nanny told me that she had rolled over. I had told her that morning that Precious had been enjoying rolling and playing on the mat a lot. I described how she was rolling from her back to her side and then leaning her head and leg forward, like she wanted to get to her tummy. When I got home from work, the nanny said “I see what you mean. She rolled over today,” and then continued on to describe other things she had done.
She said it in a matter of fact way, so I’m not sure it had dawned on her that Precious hadn’t actually rolled fully over yet with me. So I asked her to describe it. She said that she went from her tummy to her side, then paused and rolled to her back.
Later, after she left, I held back tears. How could she roll over for the first time with the nanny, when she is only with her two days a week!? It seemed cruel that I should miss such a milestone. I was so disappointed that when I then opened a piece of unexpectedly stressful mail, I broke into tears. I ended up sitting on the floor near her, crying and texting my husband about how I wished he were home with me right then.
I went and took a bath with Precious, crying into the bathwater about how I had missed that moment and wouldn’t get it back, even as I caressed her beautiful soft skin and hair and watched her smile at me.
When my husband returned home he tried valiantly to convince me that I hadn’t missed something significant. That all the little moments add up and it’s not right to look at the situation and see myself as missing something. And in my head, where the rational part of me lives, I knew he was right. I think all the time about how lucky I am, to have a great husband, two great jobs, and the flexibility to work part time while my baby is young. Most of all, I think about how lucky I am to have this little wonder of nature. But with my heart, I still felt sad.
Since then, I’m feeling better about it. It’s been a whole week and she hasn’t done it since then, so I’m starting to even doubt it was real. Even if it was though, I know that the first time I see it it will still be special.
How do you deal with knowing about the moments you’ve missed? Do you even want to know?